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Robin's avatar

I was 15, A sophomore in high School. I spent most of my time worrying about my hair. My mother gave me these permanents that made me look like an electrified schnauzer. I also wondered if I would ever get my period, go on a date, learn how to spell, (I am Dyslexic) or grow breasts...I was a very late bloomer. I was in the dance room waiting to try out to be a cheerleader. All the other girls had breasts, shining bouffant hair and pink lipstick. I really hated them but I thought if I got on the squad I might become a more sane version of them that would get a boyfriend and be able to spell discombobulated without a brain freeze. We were ordered to the auditorium on the intercom and told the president was dead and released from School. I walked home numb and then watched TV with my mom and little sister. It seemed like a strange dream. I had not experienced a personal death yet and this event seemed too awful to be real. I was sad but mostly, I think, for the loss of my feeling that the world was a good and safe place. The Ruby shooting, Jackie in her pink blood spattered suit, little John John. It was all quite shocking. I saw past childhood and saw grief and evil clearly for the first time. I Did not become a cheerleader, I got a pixie haircut, (the only safe hairdo ever, I still have one), and became less delusional about life... except about the opposite sex... that took me a little longer - about 45 years. 😻

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Terry Hoffman's avatar

I was in Grade 10, in a biology class. I think we were all too young, too immature to grasp the totality of the moment. The word spread. Ours teacher was a cold fish, and went on with the class. Our school leaders were not leaders. There was no announcement, we stayed until the final bell sent us home to our black-and-white televisions. We watched and watched and watched.

That evening, the synagogue was filled spontaneously. The rabbi gave a sermon that brought little comfort. The entire congregation rose, and we all said the Kaddish, the mourner's prayer. I had never spoken those words before, had only seen the adults stand and recite them. Some of us wept.

I was numb. It was too enormous to process, certainly too much to realize how the world had changed that Friday. That realization came later, seeped into my consciousness as floodwaters sometimes do, slowly, relentlessly, and I understood that nothing would ever be the same.

So many deaths followed: Malcolm, Marrtin, Bobby, 50+ thousand, and on and on.

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